Stop breathing, just take your hands and squeeze your neck as hard as you can. It’s not that hard. Just hold your breath for a while, you can even do this to others, it will feel as good as doing it to yourself, maybe even better. It’s not like anyone will care anyway.
It’s time to have painful conversations. You’ve put them off long enough
who cares about not going back into toxic/unhealthy relationships. you’re nostalgic as fuck and that’ll never change. you like the abuse anyway! it’s the only source of attention that you get, after all ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
go up to him. greet him like you normally would. and cry. cry until you choke on your own tears. tell him everything. how many therapists youve been to that did nothing for you. how many times youve slid a blade across your wrist. how many times you had stood at the edge, and had gotten so close to jumping. but didnt. all because you would miss him. make him give you sympathy. you want him to show how much he really cares without you telling him to anything. just cry. for him. for yourself.
jump off a bridge. choose the highest one and literally jump off of it. you know you’ll feel so much better, you’ll feel your body crash into the water and you’ll finally have some rest. your flesh and bones will become one with the water and you’ll finally disappear from this godforsaken world, you’ll finally be free.
not everyone gets to live, so why should everyone want to?
